I was 15 years old, just moved to a new school and I thought I might like to try out for the track team.
Never having this type of experience before, I was not sure what to expect.
I missed the day of tryouts due to illness; however, the coach still allowed me to tryout by myself the day I returned to school. Out of the gym and on to the track he sent me with one of the older students to take my score. I chose to tryout for the 220 event which meant running 3/4 of the way around the track.
As I started to run, thoughts started running through my mind. I could hear myself saying, “You are not going fast enough”, “your moving too slow”.
“You will never make the team”…these thoughts continued to loop around in my mind, consuming me until….
I stopped right on the track 1/2 of the way through. I could go no further.
All of a sudden this young man started yelling at me.
“What are you doing? Why did you STOP!” startled, I yelled back…“I wasn’t going fast enough”. His reply, “Are you kidding?!!!!”
“If you had kept going you would have beat the teams record, Go back and I will give you one more chance.”
Embarrassed and intimidated to be running in front of this young boy…. I went back to the starting line and started over…this time I finished the racing event. I had given all I had to the first try. Now my nerves were frazzled, my energy depleted. As hard as I tried, this second attempt was too slow to make the team.
I will never forget that experience and how my negative thoughts overtook me.
I allowed them to stop me from doing what I desired to do.
I gave up too soon !
Have you ever experienced something like that?
I was stopped dead on the track by my own Thoughts! Thoughts have power…….Energy fueled by our emotions. For short I refer to them as Thought Energies?” A good visual would be some type of scale, let’s say similar to a thermometer, where every increase of a number on that thermometer would represent the increase of power and every decrease basically means that you felt a decrease in power.
I became aware of this many years ago after reading a book, “Force vs Power” by David R. Hawkins, M.D., Ph.D. I became fascinated with his chart of numerical numbers that had been assigned to 17 different emotional levels. The lowest level assigned was the number 20 which represented Shame and the highest was listed 700-1000 which represented Enlightenment.Other emotions listed between these two were grief at 75, fear – 100, anger – 150, courage – 200, willingness – 310, reason – 400, love – 500 and peace – 600, these being 10 of the 17 listed.
To my understanding this chart was to illustrate the energetic levels of constructive consciousness – (emotions and attitudes that are constructive and energizing to ones life force….basically feeding/fueling your energy and your attitude. Destructive consciousness would be emotions and attitudes that are destructive, draining and depleting.)
Mr. Hawkins stated that during the test, each participant was able to maintain strength in their muscles when they reached the numeric level of 200, which he labeled as the attitude of Courage, and any number that was greater.
He said, “this is the critical line that distinguishes the positive and negative influences of life. At the level of Courage, an attainment of true power occurs; therefore, it’s also the level of empowerment. This is the zone of exploration, accomplishment, fortitude, and determination. At the lower levels, the world is seen as hopeless, sad, frightening, or frustrating; but at the level of Courage, life is seen to be exciting, challenging, and stimulating. Courage implies the willingness to try new things and deal with the changes and challenges of life. At this level of empowerment, one is able to cope with and effectively handle the opportunities of life.” (David R. Hawkins, M.D., Ph.D., Power vs Force, 2002, p.84.)
He goes on to explain that at this level of Courage, one feels the energy of growth and the ability to learn and set goals. I have found this to be true, and that any number below the 200 frequency will begin to drain one’s energy. I have personally found that the belief of, “anything is possible” begins to dissipate when I drop below this level of courage until I become crippled in my own puddle of fears.
With my fascination in this energetic, numerical system, I began to observe my own clients. I observed and was able to test the strength of their mental thought energy, as they spoke on different topics. Quickly I realized that for every thought and emotion there is a matching vibration. When this vibration becomes stronger(or you might say loud enough), because of the mental focus we give to it, the body, (which is a vibrating system itself), becomes affected and begins to resonate with the thought vibration which is “speaking” the strongest. This process is what we refer to as “self-sabotage”.
Some of my client’s energetic thought fell lower that the shame level of 20. For example, the energetic level of a sexual abuse offender, who had not partaken of the healing power of Jesus Christ’s Atonement, energetically dropped down below Zero into the negative numbers. I gave this vibration the label, “No Hope” – a giving up, alone, dark, an isolated wilderness.
Working with a colleague of mine, Kris Anderson, we were able to expand this chart. The numbers have become similar to a library filing system; a quick and easy way to locate and find a perception that will encourage or hold you back from progress.
Why are our thoughts so important? Because much of our health issues, personal happiness, success, performance and productivity is determined and created by a thought. A thought that has been held long enough to generate a strong vibration either towards stress and fear, or peace and encouragement. Major personal changes can only occur when the “root/thought energy”, which is producing the present emotions, changes. Resulting in a change of attitude. So the control and power lies within you for a positive, happy existence.
Abraham Lincoln said, “All that we are is a result of what we have thought”.
The more I open my eyes to these non-verbal messages which my children are speaking, I am able to pick up on their insecurities and worries. One of my daughters is shy, quiet and reserved in public situations, She has a sweet disposition and well liked by all, but she holds herself back, by her own negative, mental talk.
The statement of “I am not good enough to_______”, kept her from excelling in many of her talents and sports. She would become frustrated and then mentally beat herself up. The coaches tried to work with her; but they too became frustrated, not understanding why she would totally shut down. No matter what they would would tell her, when she made a mistake, her automatic response was to go into distress, pull inward and shut down mentally.
It didn’t take long for me to realize what was happening. At home I spent one on one time with her, discovering what mental statements filled her head when she was placed into these type of situations. I found the specific thought that had a strong enough frequency to help her, if she would choose to focus more on them. These words could create an image in her mind that had a strong enough vibration to cancel out her fear and negative thinking. So the key for changing deeper perceptions that create anxiety and fear, is to find a real thought that is strong enough to produce a positive change.
Did it work? Last year during our state volleyball tournament she served 15 serves in a row, more than any other girl who played that whole tournament, helping her team to win 1st place in State. She received a trophy at the end of the year in basketball for, “most points, most rebounds & leadership award”. She accepted a solo piano piece in our school music performance, and played beautifully. Yes, I would say it has worked. She has progressed more than I had hoped. She has gone from a shy, reserved child who kept to herself, to really opening up, stepping out and exploring her gifts.