Well the minute she walked out the door I headed for my Comfort cd. My precious daughter and her husband have been visiting for the last week. It is a two day drive to get from their home to ours. So, the trips are few and far between. We have a tight bond within this family that I am grateful for…. something that has been passed on by my parents and our faith. But with that deep love and desire to be around each other, comes the overwhelming sadness accompanied with grief that we feel each time we part.
Would we not all love the idea, that we would never have to experience these two emotions. sadness and grief…. yet, if we did not, it would not be possible to know what true joy and happiness can feel like. “Yea, right! you are saying… I could totally be happy and not have to go through pain and sorrow — or would I?”
In the past I have buried my hurts deep down in my heart by putting on the brave and happy face. Oh yes, and then there are those shopping sprees and bags and bags of chocolate. (Don’t worry, I am not downing chocolate). But I have found that taking a moment to address my feelings has made a whole lot happier me!
I don’t make this into a major ordeal. That is not the way for a yellow/white personality. But I do allow myself to grieve. When I feel the tears coming…. no more brave face (well I don’t burst out into tears in front of everyone – I find my quiet place). But I am also the type that doesn’t like to be held back or slowed down and that is what holding on to negative emotions can do. If there is something joyful to find in the day – I am all after that!
So a huge THANK YOU Gary, (my husband) for so brilliantly and emotionally creating these cds. Allowing my body to deal with these deep emotions through the power of music is much better on my waistline and my budget! (I am sure he would have to agree) This music provides a frequency for my body that’s like tuning the radio into a perfect support line.
Interestingly enough just as a side note, I asked the heavens if what I am listening to could also benefit my daughter (she had tears streaming down as they drove off and that always breaks a mothers heart) – I just got a text that she is feeling much better and that she loves me very much. The movement of sound and frequency has not barriers, so it is very possible for her to receive the benefit also. When your kids are happy, mamas happy!
My Real Positive Change for the day — I care about me enough to drop off a few extra pounds of sadness and deep grief by taking 15 mins. to listen to our Comfort cd. This is going to be a beautiful day and I am off to make it one!
I hope it is for you also 🙂