I had an interesting experience just the other morning. The best way to describe it would be to ask you to remember back to a time when you have walked into a babies room just as they are opening their eyes and beginning to awaken. As you look down into the crib their eyes meet yours and this big grin comes across their face. A precious moment when their facial expression sends a sweet message…”Well, Hi there! I’m really glad to see you!”
To give you a little background….for months on end, I found my mind obsessed with many concerns which followed me to bed, and upon waking took over, pushing out any other possible thoughts. After a month or so of this, I decided I wanted a change. I NEEDED a change. Not only was I feeling miserable, I was making others miserable within my home. So, I set a goal that each morning as I opened my eyes, coming into consciousness, my FIRST and only thoughts right away would be… “this is going to be a great day!” I didn’t just think them, I filled these thoughts with enthusiasm so that I could FEEL them. I began practicing this and because of the natural law – “what goes out, comes back”, I started to actually feel joyful and excitement as I started a fresh new day.
As the days rolled forward, I got a little careless in my own personal routine of unloading my “stress bucket”. You know, the one that catches every thing for every one, not just yourself. Of course, I didn’t look upon these tasks as ones that could be creating stress. They were things I liked to do, people I wanted to help. But in my excitement of doing “it all”, my pattern and routine for healthy living was beginning to be put on the back burner. Because I am not really Super Hero – as much as I would like to be. This life style can only go on for so long, and then the candle begins to feel as if it is being burnt at both ends with not much left in the middle!
Up0n realizing what was happening, which eventually I always do, I desired to get back on track. As simple as that sounds, that realization and decision is the first and most important step – an awakening and understanding that what I have been doing is not what I really want. A realization that my thoughts and actions ultimately are not making a “Real” contribution to my life and helping me become who I desire to be. So I gratefully work the process, the methods to eliminate these thoughts and ideas, opening space for my second step. A step where I ask myself, “what do I really want?” What is the “Positive” picture, an image created in mind (the belief, thought energy, vibration) that is strong enough to support my third step, the “Change” (my desired actions) . A simple chain of thought and events that help to get me back on track, advancing ahead in my desired direction.
Actually we all realize that, in the end it is not the tasks completed on the “to do” list that will be our final evaluation, it will be who we have chosen to become that will sum up our mortal journey. Our chosen process of “becoming” formulates the feelings of satisfaction, contentment and success. Life has a way of re-arranging itself, I am sure you know what I mean. That left turn when you really were expecting to go right. So ask yourself, through these re-arranged events what are you becoming?
Getting back to my memorable event. That particular morning as I began to awaken, I found myself overwhelmed with this desire to smile – not just a little grin but a full fledged out right, over the top smile! And the picture that came into my head was the image of seeing a baby at those first moments of wake up. AND I FELT LIKE THE BABY! The feeling was as if someone was looking down upon me and saying, “good morning my sweet one, I am really glad to see you. This is going to be a great day.” I could feel my soul being filled with joy and I was excited to see what this day had in store.
Because I was so immersed in the amazing feeling, totally forgetting that yes, I am the grown up who does all the doing and giving more than the receiving, it hadn’t occurred to me until just now, there are eyes that are looking down upon us. The eyes that are always watching, God our Father. We may feel mature, old, or a little worn around the edges, but we are His young children who are continuing to grow and develop.
Not often do I think about the fact that His eyes are familiar as they gaze upon me with enthusiasm, excitement, encouragement, absolute adoration and never ending love as they look down upon me in this crib called life. But now I will not forget – that baby morning smile.